My LiFe!! =[

damn, well right now is not so good.. =[ the only people getting me stright would probably be Larry, jason, leshoney, shawn, Letonya, Donavan, Pesers d., Allissa dimika,...
people that are not helping is Bee, Shawntel and sheen =[
ugh. Damn, i want to talk to them about wats going on...but, really their mad at me jus becuz i acted like how they act to me!! =[ Freak-or-nature!!! =[ i jus dont knw wat to do. i need to talk those 3 though i knw that for Sure!!! until then, I dont knw?...but, totallie cant wait for this weekend!! =] CHyeah man!!. :D

Ima have fun! :D i love it. i cant wait to be wit my brothers and all my other families they make me feel good. =] and something jus happend last night!! OMG!!! its all ScARy!. =] haha..yesturday i got scared. and today in 2nd hour i jus found out that i have to write a story about my life haha..yep but, cant wait to do that!! =] yeah. well its the Name of it is "BABE"
chyeah man =] hehe..cuz thats wat everyone at home call me babe. yeah :D..hehe..but, jus cant wait yo :D

Wat Am i GoNnA Do In 20 YrS!

well, uhh..like i already said about a million times. That i want to be the pres. of my Tribe. and help out people anyway that i can. Open up new things for the San Jaun Southern Piaute Tribe. I would be married by 23 i knw but, someone i care for and someone trust. have kids at 24 =] i want 4 kids. 2 boys and 2 girls names are . . . (Trip John, Madison John, Austain John, & Tessi John) those are my kids names =] CHyeah see i have mostly everything planned out. where am i going to move would probably be at chennyne, Wyoming. i'm going to be moving there by 19years old. becuz i have to wait for someone to go with. and i think ima be moving with my cuzin sister "Rholandoylon John" and move with by best guyfriend "Adriano John". Yeah =] hehe..i jus cant wait, but i knw that ima be working from home. and taking online classes for collage. . . I jus cant wait to go and make a difference. i knw That ima be out there for awhile. but, I'm coming back to make a difference for the Rez. ha. =] and uhh...thats part of wat i want to do. i also want to open up a bakery shop here in tuba, and a T-Shirt print store here. =] You knw. :D

well thats all i have to say.

WaT i LeArN 2DaY!!!!

Well, today we had a guest-speaker come in and talk to all grades. . . the first grade that he talkd to was the Freashman class. during 3rd hour. He told us that "Native People are Capable of ANYTHING!!!!" well, witch is true. but, most native people, teens and kids are ashmed of their culture witch.. . you shouldnt even be ashamed to be becuz....its who you are and thats where u come from. mostly people shouldnt be scared to show who they really are. but, most native people are because their are scared that people are not going to expect them the way they are . . . and mostly native people love to Gossip, talk, laugh, make fun of, and talk about eachother. . . witch is not good. . . Most of the teenangers dont like the way they live. but, they can change that if they make a difference in there lifes instead of putting down other people and making fun of other people. What native people need to understand is that... EVERYBODYS look for someone to care, show repect to them and treat them like there something....Everyone has the same things. . . like hands, legs, hair, eyes, nose, feet ect. but, wat they dont understand is that we all have different personality'zzz, different thinking, different mind, different things they like. but, thats wat makes each and everyone of us unqie. =] and thats soo AWSOME!!.. :D

I've learnd alot of things from my elders and family members and everything... that a gurl should knw about life. i'm really close to my mom and dad. . . i talk to them about everything, i ask them queations about things and they answer most kids think its sick to talk to there mom and dad about things but, i'm not i'm every much cofertable with my mom and dad about anything. they make me laugh. i love them to death. if anything happend to them. id die inside. because my mom and dad tought me everything that i should knw about myself, where i'm from. people say i'm "Lucky" to have both of my perants and that is TURE! i am every LUCKY! to have my mom n dad Still together.!. and they are willing to help anyone of my friends about everything. becuz they both experentcd life with both mom n dad and with out a dad. my family are the funnest people in the world they are really talktive to talk to. they know what its like to be a kid. they well share anything they want with you. ugh... i guess you can say I'm happy with the way i live my life!. =] and the only thing i hate is that some people dont like me becuz, they think i'm spolied, a brat, a gurl that hangs out with to many guys, i jus dont get it. i mean like why be jealous of me??...theres nothing to be jealous of. i'm jus a normal gurl trying to grow up to persude my dreams and hopes. =] and hopfully i make it there if not then, i already have my aside goals. yep =] and see i already planned out my life. . . so i'm jus waitting to grow up. I've realized the more people "Put you down" the more people "Try there best to break you!" you learn how to ignore the name calls, the put downs and the stares. The more i get those, The more motiveat i get to do better and make them mad. because. . . when people look at you like that and they want to say something to you. You jus want to say to them. "I am going to make it and your gonna watch where i end up at." and it jus like the no and you do it. wen people tell you "Yes" you dont even do it. its almost like that. but wen they tell you "YOU CANT DO IT" it makes you want to "PROVE" them wrong. and then, wen they say "GREAT JOB" You feel like you Accplished the GOAl that you wanted to reach!. and thats how i feel when i do things that are good :D. and wen people "Put me down" i want to prove them WRONG!. but thats jus probably me. i dont knw?... well find out.


Turn in later WITH "DRAMA!!!"

haha...

By: Hope J.

The Walk!

i think that people well, jude you on how you well get there but, its totallie up to you to figure out wat your going to do about it.!. but, today i found out about things that i didnt even knw!!... well i didnt knw that other people do the work for you ha. yep . . . well i've learned that there is more to life then jus playing around and that there is more careers out there in the world you jus have to look for them and do you best to do it!. but, the most hardest thing is to pick one!. cuz do u really want to be a janiter?. a nurse?. a policeman?. a fireman, a teacher?. a cook?. but, there is soo many different personalitys out there . . . to take those jobs!. but, really i want to be the pristdent of my tribe becuz, i want to mostly help my people out!. and I've sad that for at less a thousands of times. haha.. yep =D

well that all i have to say. tune in later wen we cum bk with DRAMA! haha..lol..

Values

Well, the way i want to help people. becuz...its wat i do best. and i love to help people. . . i help my long distence family, my friends family, my families. I'm a really helpful person once you get to know me. . . . I always help my gramother with her cooking stand at the flea market. lol. hehehe...Well i love to help my mom, dad, auntie && gramother cook. becuz cooking is something that i love to do the most. I leard everyday about knew things i'm still trying to learn how my grama makes her good blue-corn-mush . and my fathers good homeny-stew. :D...

have you ever tasted it?? . . . its really good!! :D

but, mostly i think become the priestdent of my tirbe well help alot of people . . . I'd open up house's for the people, help them, with their health. run all these different kind of events to keep my people healthy. i knw taking the job is scary!. i do knw that. but i'm welling to fight for my people if no one can stand up for them i can do it. i knw i can. if i believe i can then i knw i can fight for my people.!. well uhh...yeah.

i also like to stay close to my family becuz my family are always there for me to help me when i need help their there for me. they teach me alot of different things everyday!. and my friends i'd love to say with my friends becuz, their the best things to me!. and they make me believe i can be myself!. and encorug me to believe in myself. well, uhh...I do want to keep my trudtions going becuz i want my kids to knw the things where they come from and that they knw themsevles. because i dont want them growing up not knowing where did they come from or who they are. i want them to knw the trudions and the relaugions that we go and fallow by.

earning money is a big part of getting the job. but, i knw becoming the prisdent is going to get alot of money...but, i'm not in it for the money i'm in it to help my people and to get them money and make sure that they dont get laid off.... Yes the money well help me pay for things i need but, it well also help me to help other people.
To be a part of a family??...uhh...i would but, not in that time yet becuz,...i need to get the money enfo to rais the kid. and everything and help suppore my family!.

well i think that is about it.???

ttyl pce !

Career Exploration

well, in this class i learnd alot of things. . . i've learned that there is alot of different things to do in the world. and mostly everybody hasn't figured out what they are going to do in the Future. but, me i already knw wat my plans are in the future. I've learned that you can change your career sooo...many times. but, probably only 3 times you can change it. but, if you want to be at the top your going to have to work really hard to get there. and that, he's trying to tell us what we want in life. but, to tell you that honest turth i do knw what i want in "Life".

By the time i grad. I'm going to move to Wyomy with someone. and going to start going to skul online. but, at the same time, work at the San Juan Southern Piaute Tribe. ima be a Secirty or a person that is the middle. Then by the time I am 21 i'm going to Run for concil. and help out with the people as much as i can. and try and figure out what ways i can become president of the San Jaun Southern Piaute tribe. so by the time i turn 23 i'm going to Run for Presitdent. and try to stay on top and help out my comunity as much as i can. and help the Tirbe out.

by the time i'm 24 or 25 I'm going to try and start a family. =]
i want to buy a ranch in taxes.

but, now thats my dreams now back to Career Exlporation... Its jus showing me the Guide lines on where to go and how to get there. and thank god. i knw wat i want in life!!!!

Forever & Always

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding? Cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak I dont feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?

Cause one second it was perfect, now youre halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone, he still hasnt called And then you feel so low
you cant feel nothing at all And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong It rains when youre here and it rains
when youre gone Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy I looked into you're eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now Im not so sure

So heres everything coming down to nothing
Heres to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I dont anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasnt called And then you feel so low
you cant feel nothing at all And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong It rains when youre here and it rains when youre gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didnt mean it baby, I dont think so

Oh-oh-OHHHHH.

Oh Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything

Cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong It rains when youre here and it rains when youre gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasnt called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong It rains when youre here
and it rains when youre gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didnt mean it baby,
you said forever and always
Yeah

Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving but I know I saw a light in you
As we walked we were talking and I didn't say half the things
I wanted to Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
Ill be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy you might have me believing
I don't always have to be alone.

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in te rain so
Come feel this magic ive been feeling since
I met you Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I've got some things to say to you
I seen it all so I thought but I never seen anyone shine the way you do
They you walk, the way you walk, the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving
I think you and I should stay the same

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in te rain so
Come feel this magic ive been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

They're dimming the street lights
You're perfect for me why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now so come on and come out and pull me near
Shine, shine, shine


Hey Stephen I could give you fifty reasons why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well they're beautiful but would they write a song for you

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in te rain so
Come feel this magic ive been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help I if I wanna kiss you in te rain so
Come feel this magic ive been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself Myself, can't help myself
I can't help myself.

When i'm with you.

Friday night beneath the stars,
in a field behind your yard,
you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.

And sometimes we don't say a thing;
just listen to the crickets sing.
Everything I need is right here by my side.
And I know everything about youI don't wanna live without you.

[Chorus:]
I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town boy and girllivin' in a crazy world.
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.
And I don't try to hide my tears.
The secrets or my deepest fears.
Through it all nobody gets me like you do.
And you know everything about me.
You say you can't live without me.

[Chorus]
When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.
Only you can tell.

[Chorus:]


That I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only meWho I wanna beWell,
I'm only me when I'm with you
With you
Uh huh
Yeah

Your Not sorry.

All this time i wasting that you would come around
i've been giving out chances everytime u've let me down
and its taking me this long but, baby i've figure you out.
and you thinking that we're gonna be find. but this time
you dont have to call anymore this is the last strow.
dont want to hurt anymore. you can tell me ur sorry.
but, i dont believe you baby like i did before. YOur not sorry.


No ohhh. noo. ohh..

Looking so sinceent. i mit have believed you if didnt knw.
could've love you all my life. if you didnt have to left me in the cold.


asking me to listen cuz, it workd each time before.

Your not sorry...

White Friends VS Native Friends

WHITE FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Always bring the food.

WHITE FRIENDS: Will say 'hello'.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Will give you a big hug and a kiss.

WHITE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mom and Dad..

WHITE FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Cry with you.

WHITE FRIENDS: Will eat at your dinner table and leave.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Will spend hours there, talking, laughing, and just being together.

WHITE FRIENDS: Know a few things about you.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from you.

WHITE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that's what the crowd is doing.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds' ass that left you behind.

WHITE FRIENDS: Would knock on your door.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, 'I'm home!'

WHITE FRIENDS: Are for a while..
NATIVE FRIENDS: Are for life.

WHITE FRIENDS: Might ignore this.
NATIVE FRIENDS: Will forward this to all their NATIVE Friends!

Funny JOKE!!!

Later that night, while watching TV, the old man gets up from his chair. '

Want anything while I'm in the kitchen?' he asks.

'Will you get me a bowl of ice cream?'

'Sure.'

'Don't you think you should write it down so you can remember it?' she asks.

'No, I can remember it.'

'Well, I'd like some strawberries on top, too. Maybe you should write it down, so's not to forget it?'

He says, 'I can remember that. You want a bowl of ice cream with strawberries.' '

I'd also like whipped cream. I'm certain you'll forget that, write it down?' she asks.

Irritated, he says, 'I don't need to write it down, I can remember it! Ice cream with strawberries and whipped cream - I got it, for goodness sake!'


Then he toddles into the kitchen. After about 20 minutes, The old man returns from the kitchen and hands his wife a plate of bacon and eggs. She stares at the plate for a moment.



'Where's my toast ?'

Abt Ma' Self!

HELLO!!! =]

well my damn is Hope! =]
I'm the type of gurl that likes anything!...
but, i'm jus laugh-able! =] but, if theres things that
i think that is not funny then i dont laugh about them....well i like to spend alot of times with my mom becuz she's the most person that i love to talk too. she doesnt act like my mom...most of the kids here think she's my antie. but really she's not shes my mother. My father is the person that is funny...kinda grumpy but above it all he's my dad and i love him!!! =] well i love my antie Mary-blue & Ooen boon. becuz, they raised me.. =] and they still now . . . well I'm really Close to my family memebers . . . well, mostly i "TRuST" everyone i knw. but, mostly to them i think they act werid. so if you act mad to me i'll act mad to you...so mostly i go by the saying... "Treat me the way, You want to be Treated!" so if you dont get that then, hope god helps you. Haha..lol. =] well . . . the most important people in my life is Andy S. he's the guy that makes me laugh and always makes a smile on my face, then there's "Adriano J." he's the guy that well uhh..i knw he'll always be there for me to call wen ever i need to talk to him he's there... and My brothers (All there names) ZUm, Jungle, Clowe, sheem, saun, june, vest, t-j, lance, timmy timmy, jurmy, Ty, joashy washey, brian, Annie, albie. and soo much more! =] I love them all.. hehe..Well the most things i love to do is . . . . Ride Horse's, Play football, basketball, volleyball, Cheer, baseball, softball, theres soo much more....but, i only do those with my family memebers. hehe..well I love skul becuz, i dont knw get to see my friends. =] at skul people that i love to talk to is (Leon, Sheen, Jason, Shawntel, Shawn, ect.) the list can go on and on and on and on....but, dont wnat that lol. haha..but its jus mostly people i talk to that i love talking to you. i dont really matter if you dont like me but, really i love to meet new people =] i may be shy at first but, other then that once you get to knw me I'm verly talk-active!! and really the person you can talk to about anything. =] but, its alright you can believe wat ever . . . =] hehe..well I'm out DUCCC... =] pce out.. :D CHYeaH MAN!!!

Today--Thursday!

Hmm...haha..damn, my teacher told me that i have to write 3 blogs lol. HAHAHA...=P well uhh..i'm jus on my gmail talking to my brother about somethings. becuz i really need his help =[[

=[[ but, really hmm...i really dont knw wat to write about lol. hahha...
well uhhh...I'm jus trying to think here. so sorry haha..lol.
hmmm....I'm hungry lol. HAhAHAHa

well uhh...its not even time to go. =] i love skul cuz, it jus fun =]
mostly i love to have fun about everything...hmm
today i had to write about 9-11 =[ and that totallie reminded me about things.
gosh. so . . . it made me thinking about the good-old-days!!.. about wen my
uncle was alive. and really I miss him sooo much. he was the best uncle ever.!!!.
he was the kind of uncle that understand wat i was going though and always made me laugh
about thingings . . . . well, uhh...i really dont knw wat to talk about. but, catch my next blog ima'
blog one about myself HAHAHA!!! =] these one's are jus about me here and there.. . lol. :D

Thursday.

Well, uhh.. =[ i really dont knw wat to say... all i can say is BLAH BLAH BLAH!! . . . right now.
i'm jus second guessing myself about everything! =[ and i really dont like doing that. becuz...its hard. and really i love my family becuz my family RoCks! ThEy MaKe My LiFe A-lOt BeTtEr!! =]

my friends are AWSOME!!! =] chyeah man.. hehe...

and today is my brother BIRTHDAY!!!...=] (ZUmmy!!!)

I love him =] i love all my brothers... chyeah Man!! =]
hehehe...and mostly i love people :D....